Leaving NYC was hard.
If you could picture me on the floor being dragged by my ankles towards the Amtrak and my nails engraving claw marks in the tile, that's what it would've been like...however you KNOW i gotta be fly with mines so I just kissed and hugged my King repeatedly...silently crying and followed my babies inside Penn Station. Knowing this isn't 'Peace' as in 'goodbye' b.u.t equally just as difficult. My King and I are like organic almond butter and jelly...i've never been this far away from home.
The decision to head south [back] to Florida was more of a pro-active approach to securing some land and stability for my cipher and I. Cause let's be honest, the houses down here are beautiful and cheap...What I could pay for a 3-4 bedroom house down here would equate to a stuffy studio condo in NYC. I am not bound to the concrete jungle; I deserve fresher air, foliage and .::tranquility::. like everyone else.
And to be honest, I was more in my 'raw element' when I lived down here a few years ago. Since moving back 'home' I got hooked on caffeine again due to the constant hustle and bustle in my life. My Sun was in the hospital for 3 weeks in January having surgery for esophageal stenosis (tightening of the esophagus), and I was there 20 hours a day...and the 4 hours I longed for at home with my daughter or in my bed to rest, barely existed...some days I didn't make it home at all. Coke and Coffee got me from point A to point B and coherent enough to repeat the same answers every 8 hours when the new shift started and the doctors did their rounds. And the fact that my Sun's issue was not a common one brought even more hospital staff into our room constantly poking, prodding and asking for the SAME medical history i've provided over 50 times already. Hospital food, exhaustion and constant stress almost killed me. And it was winter too?? oh hell naw.
Let's do a comparison of Florida Raw vs New York (Mid-Winter/Stressed the f*ck out/24-7 Grind) Raw:
I am happy to say I have made progress since then (thank gawd cause this is not a good look for me!), b.u.t I still have a long way to go. Instead of shitty makeshift grocery stores I have access to quality produce, good weather, better air and ORGANIC foods in abundance.
B.u.t don't get it twisted, I won't be forking over my New York ID anytime soon. I'm just on an 'extended vacay' down here on the Treasure Coast. Time to grind.
Im sure you were having a hard time moving to florida and leaving your King. But just think about how much fun you guys will have when you do get to see each other again! So it will be all worth the wait :). And just the fact that you even started eating better in New York with some of your first videos shows that you had unplugged yourself from this food society along time ago.So give yourself credit for that. I love New York too,have "Family" out there. The last time I was there I was there for 2 months and I couldnt even imagine eating healthy out there..so cudos to you.:-)
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